Okay, so my best friend just sent me the link to a blog she's been writing for the last couple of months, and alongside the feeling of pride I felt for her (it's really starting to take shape and I genuinely want to read more of the sorts of things she's posting), I also felt extrememely inadequate.. As in, I feel I never really follow things through.. For instance, this blog. I started it back in March, meaning to post frequently and yet I've managed, what, 2 blog posts since then?? But this idea isn't new.. I've been writing songs since I was 13, and more recently have got into recording them as well, thanks to another good friend of mine. When I was in U6 at school, I decided once and for all that I was going to make my own album, and do it properly. Not just record another bunch of rough acoustic demos of my songs. The aforementioned friend, who not only records but also produces music, was super excited about it and we spent *hours* on skype talking about how I wanted the first song to go, while he sat there and painstakingly created an entire backing track for it on his computer. And so it went with another 4 songs - one which he'd even written for me. We recorded vocals for 4 of the 5 songs we(/he'd) created backing tracks to, and in the meantime he also started working on instrumentals for another 2 songs. That's when it all started slowing to a halt... I went off to university and discovered a social life for the first time in my life really.. Suddenly I had a choice of groups of people I wanted to hang out with, rather than being able to list my "real friends" on the fingers of one hand. Along with that and four modules of Maths to study, I almost sort of lost interest in what we'd done.. It actually reached the stage where I decided to forget the album, and just release the songs we'd already recorded as singles. But I was mainly doing this because I felt I ought to, to make up for the fact I'd given up on something he'd spent so much time and effort on...
The point is, that although I'm trying to get my act together musically at the moment (I wrote a new song for the first time in months whilst on holiday!), seeing this amazing blog that my friend has carefully created just highlighted the unfinished-ness of my internet profile. A YouTube account that hasn't seen a new video since January (and before that a year had passed between uploads..), a SoundCloud that has had maybe four demos added to it over the course of a year, and to top it all off, a near untouched blog that has the same "Current Favourite Songs" for a couple of months at a time. (Not that that doesn't happen occasionally, just saying :P).
So I suppose, what I'm trying to say is that this is a sort of resolution, to kickstart everything back to life :). I'm heading back down to university in two days, will be living in a shared house with my friends for the first time, and am hoping for a fresh start to life in a way. I've been getting fit all summer, and today found out that I've finally got back to the weight I was this time last year. (Guess what..? I slacked off the exercise and let the beginnings of a two pack fade away... Definitely a recurring theme.). Anyways, the point is that I'm in a healthier state of mind as well, because of this, and I reckon if I keep up the healthy living, maybe I can keep up this blog too. And who knows, I might even rediscover the songwriter in me and bring my YouTube channel back to life!
Okay, late night rants at myself over haha..
Night world. xo
Links!
The blog of the friend that inspired this post: http://www.missmuggs.blogspot.co.uk/
The friend that spends far too much time not giving up on my musical ability:
https://soundcloud.com/tarunofficialmusic
https://www.facebook.com/pages/Tarun-Official-Music/289630901056401?fref=ts
My Music:
https://soundcloud.com/syndie-simon/not-the-first
https://www.youtube.com/user/SyndieSimon
https://www.facebook.com/SyndieMusic
